Black, No Sugar (NM) - Pressure

Sweaty palms. Pounding head. 4 empty mugs of coffee. I stare blankly at the computer screen. The empty document seeming to taunt me as I rack my brain for an idea. Any idea. Another half an hour passes, 2 more mugs of coffee have been drunk and still, no words have been written down.

A completely unrelated picture but I love the bridge, its calming
I begin to wonder if the pressure I not only put on myself but the pressure that surrounds my passion is worth it. It is worth the stress? Is it worth the sleepless nights? Is it worth the hours spent looking at an empty screen? Some days it isn't, not at all! I want to have a regular sleeping pattern, I want to not have to choose between seeing friends and staring at a computer screen, I want to not have a to-do list the length of the A19. However, the majority of the days it is 100% worth it. Its worth every headache, every super late night, every time I choose to stay in over going out with friends. It's worth it all.

When I started out, I didn't for one minute think that a hobby would soon become my passion. Would become something that I arrange my day around. Would become something that I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I thought it was something to fill my spare time with.

Now, I'm four years in and I don't think I could imagine my life without it. I couldn't imagine my life without the outlet that it brings, the community that is attached to it or even the late nights and stress that I give myself to be the perfect blogger.

Grab a Cuppa has become a part of my life that I'm proud of and was once something that was just mine. However, I am now sharing this with someone that means even more to me. Owen. He's like my bother, best friend and sometimes husband all in one. His passion for blogging motivates me to keep blogging even on days the days that I'm staying at a blank screen for hours. By having Owen also writing for Grab a Cuppa and it becoming something that is ours, not just mine, I feel like I can relax and begin to not but the pressures I previously have on myself.


Another post in the style of 'Napping'! Since learning about this style at uni I have become obsessed with it, be prepared to see more of this style!





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